It's worth more than gold and crystals and pride.

 

 

On Friday I headed to Johannesburg for my best friends 21st birthday and on the way to the airport, I stumbled across this gem of a song. I already am a huge fan of Kimbra but I after I heard this song, I became obsessed with her. there's something about the lyrics that resonates with me. Anyway, I hope that you guys will enjoy this song as much as I have.

 

xx

show me where you fit.

Your silent stares speak volumes, its getting too loud but I don’t mind. 

it fell and threatened to take me

with it but my feet were not going to lose this battle.

it’s quiet again and I’m trying to keep my balance but I can’t feel the walls, I think you have something to do with that. I’m stumbling around in the dark, I think I just tripped over my pride. I’m hit.

I have to blink a couple of times, this dizzying feeling pumping midnight into my veins, I think I’m going to black

Pet Names.

You couldn’t even look at me and sound my name.
Tell me with your breathe that I was real
Let your mouth acknowledge my presence
Or
Let your teeth grind at my inflection
Even  Barabbas had a name.

You couldn’t even stay long enough to ask what it meant
As though when your back was turned on me your tongue remained behind. Only long enough to lap up every last syllable of my name.
I’d say there’s nothing in a meaning but then I’d be lying about the night I lay lying in your arms and you kissed my forehead and I was the most powerful women in the world. Or your room. Or for the night.
I’d say I should have listened to my mother because I shouldn’t go searching for validation in a mans. Boys. Acceptance.
But then I’d say that I’ve found searching to be an understatement when all my time is spent scrambling. Or should I say rambling?

And why couldn’t you just say my name?

I’d say I’ve spent nights with ears pricked in the hope of your voice in the wind.
But then I’d have to say that I’ve grown tired of long silences that only seem louder than my soul screaming …love me. Say my name. From those lips that I’d kiss a million times if you knew the taste of my own.

I’d say that you’ve never really said it because you couldn’t say it in the daylight.
I’d say that I’ve heard you say it too many times against a black night. I struggled to make out your silhouette in your sheets hoping that light would shed from your mouth as you said my name.  I’d say that against a black night not even darkness could illuminate a dying ray.

I’d say that maybe I’m asking for too much but then I’d say that you tore my guard down not to rebuild but to leave a broken home.

They asked you who I am. Say my name

ColeItWriter

Solange - Black Cab Sessions (Bad Girls)

 

 

 

I thoroughly enjoy everything about this woman. I came across this video on Youtube and I thought I should share it with you guys, how amazing is her voice?

WOOP! There It Is

I just went through my entire blog, from my last post about pretty much nothing right up to my first post about "How I like things and why I have decided to start a blog". In between all of that I found some gems, beautiful things that should be kept locked away in my treasure chest and I found some things that should've never crept their way out of my head, I guess blogging about "The Friend Zone" and other issues that really didn't matter seemed like a good idea at the time.

Going through my blog made me realise a couple of things about myself, one of them being the fact that I am an extremely emotional person and I sometimes down play the fact that I am allowed to be human every now and then, the other being the fact that a lot of mindless things kept me entertained for a very long time (I'm so grateful for the fact that I have found other things to keep me entertained... like my belly button).

So anyway, I've decided that I'm going to put up more posts and less pictures. I know I know, pictures are better but you'll receive more from the pieces that I'll put up, just trust me on this one. Some of them will be serious and some of them, not so serious. Best of both worlds right? I'll try update my blog as often as I can but I am not promising you much, I am human after all and I have my faults.

Till then,
xx

I Count Out Loud in the Darkness

 A little vodka, a little wine, a little mary jane, a lot of friends and not many memories. 

I should be working, but my belly button is way more interesting

I have been procrastinating for the past 5 hours. Until today, I did not know that it was possible to do so much but do nothing at the same time. I mean one minute it was 2:45pm and I was online looking for some journals, I blinked twice, made some coffee and next thing it's 07:03pm. Like, where did all the time go? I honestly feel like I've been robbed.


anyway, this is what procrastination looks like...

 

P.S: these pictures were taken with a web cam.